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Thursday, May 28, 2015

Peace

Peace is found
amidst achievement, 
Self-succeeding, 
but not the kind
to get gain, because
then that’s the focus.

No, the kind when
surprise comes after
Self-success, then
you'll find peace.
In the confines
of your competence
you'll see potential,
to achieve, to be
Great, Greatness,
but still that’s
not peace, because
then you are the focus.

Only when coupled
with giving, the
lesson taught to
the young, can there
be peace. 
A peace that lasts.

In the giving of
Greatness and results,
you'll see peace,
of a kind that
can not fade.

Monday, May 25, 2015

A Friend

            The engine sputter and Randal Magnuson knew the noise meant trouble. The stick vibrated dully in his hands, while he looked for any indication of a problem on the gauges. They read normal, his altitude and speed were normal. The gas was full, he always filled the tank before flight. 

            He did not feel the plane sinking, but worried that the engine would not last long. He thought of any potential problem, while rechecking the gauges and looking for any indication. 

            Nothing appeared to be wrong, but the noise continued.

            He served as an aviation officer for the last fifteen years. After early retirement he didn't know what to do with his life. After many weeks of considering his options, he concluded he was a pilot born to fly. He purchased a yellow painted PZL-106 Kruk, a small crop duster, that relieved his stress since returning home from his service. 

            The plane had rusted slightly on the hinges and around a couple bolts, but given its age it was in great condition. The plane didn't cost him a lot of money, which was why he could afford to fly again.

            Randal never crashed a plane and he didn’t want to start. He began his decent, in anticipation of a problem, although the noise was the only indication. 

            He would have preferred to fly back to the air strip, but decided he might not make it. His destination was a field, which he never would have attempted, but his gut was telling him to land, so he descended. 

            His altitude and speed decreased in preparation and everything went wrong. His fears became his reality, as the engine screamed and smoke billowed from the sides. The propeller spun oddly and in infrequent patterns. The plane sunk with a lurch and he pulled the stick back in an attempt to stabilize the small aircraft.

            He still had power, but not enough to make this landing easy or possible. Smoke collapsed in and around him, making things worse. He did all he could to keep the plane up, but it was sinking and he couldn't see anything through the smoke. He tried to keep it from diving straight into the ground.

            When Randal was young, he was used to diving. Before joining the navy and earning his wings, he swam, his specialty, diving, and that’s how he met Mary Lillet. He dove to show off. She was beautiful, with long blond hair. She was the envy of the town. She had caught his eye and they dated till he left for war, but she only wrote twice. Since he never heard from her, he stayed, flying routines at sea, and had been there ever since.

            He tried his hardest to land, but the conditions were unmanageable. The plane crashed, sinking into moist field. The shock jarred his thighs, where they connected to the seat and it sent a shock through his spine and rattled his head. His eyes rolled into the back of his head and his vision went black. He slumped in his seat unconscious, lucky to be alive. He involuntarily sucked the smoke in, which was black and thick.

            He woke, tried to orient himself and quickly realized he was in a dangerous situation. He pushed the hatch out, which was still intact and unhindered. He flopped out on to the windshield, sucking in clean air. He climbed down the side of the plane, thinking she looked bad the entire way. He knew she was destroyed.


            He walked away, stumbling, trying to recover from the shock. He felt pain in his lower leg and saw no blood, which surprised him. He headed for a side road that he saw from the plane. He knew it was to the East.


            He neared the road, as a truck pulled up. The man driving was in his fifties. He had the window down waving his arm and called out. The sun was in his face.

            Randal lifted his arm and waved back glad he came to help.The man parked facing the field. He had pulled a little off the road, and hurried to help Randal.


            "The names Murphy, Murph for short." He said as he put his arm under Randal's armpit and helped him walked the short distance to the truck.  He looked like a hard man who knew his way around machinery, his oil stained rag and suspenders worked as indicator of his profession. The bed of the truck was littered with car parts and hay. Randal liked the man since seeing him, but the more he saw of the him, the more he felt they related to each other. Murph helped Randal into the passenger seat, which was upholstered with a red, black and white patterned blanket. The seat was extremely worn, but he sat grateful.


            Murph moved to the driver side and pulled himself in. He backed up, onto the road and said “I’ll take you into town. My wife Louisa will get you bandaged up, and then we'll go to the hospital and get you checked out.” 

            Randal nodded his head, “Thanks” he said and the effort made him start coughing. The smoke had done its damage. His throat was hoarse. 

             “You know after seeing you crash, I sure hope you weren’t one of the airmen flying above me in the war.” Murph said with a smile, mocking the wounded man. Randal smiled and began laughing, both laughed long and hard. The laughing made Randal start another coughing fit.

            The two drove down the road. Murph talked the entire time, while the plane continued to burn and Randal tried not to laugh at Murph's jokes.   

Monday, May 18, 2015

Mother's Raiment

For times when dreams are
All but false realities,
How does freedom come?

In the silent whispering of kind hearts?
A mother’s kind, a mother’s love.
Mothers ought to go
Straight to heaven,
If they are true.
A mother’s love.
Through insufferable conflict,
She still loves,
Holy and wholly.

Then, in what Raiment
Does she travel?
She is not dressed
In perfect gown,
But in anything
Lying around.
Her glory not
To be found.
Unless you hear
A child play.
Then, oh who
Is to say, she
Has no cause,
No purpose?

To this I say.
She is clothed
In eternal raiment.
Glory, for her honor
And kindness shared.
She has built a
Mansion not so near,
But far away.
Her life here, not to be
All glam and glory,
But I have a feeling her life after
Might be more holy.
Brighter than most could dream to see.

She will eternally live with me!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Self Imposed Wall

We are good at
Rejecting emotion
And hiding in it.

We are but a mirror
Reflecting what we receive.
The world rejects us.
It hurts.

In place, barriers erected
Surrounding our heart.
Nothing in, nothing out.

Can I love or is
It in opposition to
My inner command?

Brick upon brick.
Nothing in, and
Nothing out.
That’s how it will be.
Built up, built down.
Just never broke down!

How can I Love,
When I can’t
Love myself?
Away! Away!
Be Away!
I push so hard,
You won’t
See what I see.
It can’t be.
Can’t be.

No hope.
No Love.
No Faith.
 No real emotion.
All is faked,
But doubt.
My emotions
Are in uproar
Behind the restricted
Dominion of
My self-IMPOSED wall.

I am the Dictator
Killer of my
Dreams and hopes.

-I duck my head
Near mirrors and
Cringe upon my seeing me.-

WHO AM I?
Can you see?
I can’t and
It’s drowning me.

Although I can’t
See through the
Opalescent Transcendence
I see you
And you seem to
See me!
Who are you?

You have become
My hope,
My faith.
My Love
And real emotion
Belongs to thee.

You helped me see me.

You gently hold
Me and break
Down my wall.
And when you see,
You smile back at me.

My Healer,
My God
And King.
I now see me.

My heart, full
For what you’ve
Done.
My Love.
My God.
My King.

Saturday, May 9, 2015

The Long Lit Candle

Arthur Wright was born in 1749 and survived for decades. He made it through wars and revolutions, all because of a candle. He was trained to keep the perpetual flame lit, so it might refuel his soul.

It was 1769 and he was twenty. He was young, handsome, full of life and potential when he first received the candle. He went to town during market, and as he walked around carelessly, a man grabbed him. He pulled him into an alley and whispered "How would you like to live forever?” The question was so absurd Arthur became entranced in his story. The man explained how the candle he held could give life to the person who cared for it. The candle was not to burn thin or empty. He explained how the candle needed to burn frequently and only when he worked the wick, the wax, and slept should the flame be allowed to be extinguished. Arthur worked laboriously with the candle his entire life. 

He was in most mentions an old man by now, although young in appearance you could see his experience. His face showed age, dishevelment, and deep loss, but it was oddly hidden in the depths of his newly cracking skin. He looked dead, but full of life. He did not notice the deception in his young face, maybe because it looked so familiar.

He occurred a swarm of property and wealth in his lifetime, but he felt he had little to show for it. Many people who knew him called him a hermit. He sat in his darkened study, which was shelved with books, some as old as him, watching and working the candle. There were times he stayed up late and watched the candle’s flickering flame. He slept very little and ate even less.

Arthur thought many times of putting the candle out and leaving it behind. He could never bring himself to do it. He told himself it was due to the candles beauty, but he knew that was a lie. He lived too long, learning how to run from death. He distanced the rapidly changing world and its society. He knew he didn't belong, but he questioned if he belonged in the other world to come. That though, was another issue he tried to avoid.

He stood and walked to the flame. He didn't know if it was early or late, but it didn't matter. He sat at the round Victorian table he carved, the candle rested in the center.

He pulled out his tools, blew the flame out gently to let the wax settle. He needed the wax cool so he could work it. He began to braid thin pieces of clothe together and intertwined foreign materials as he went. He mastered the art of wick making and wax molding, to the point where he could make the candle burn slowly and as strong as possible.

The candle’s wax settled and the wick lay ashen. He took a thin metal carving tool and meticulously trimmed the wax back, exposing the wick. He cut the singed end off before weaving the new wick onto the old. He used wax to help hold the knotted and intertwined pieces together. He reworked the fading wax, adding more and more until he was satisfied. His days repeated for far too many years.

Arthur did not leave his house for months at a time. Living slightly in the country was his only reassurance in this world. He began to wonder, like he often did, what it would be like to have done something great in life. He wanted to travel the world, and see the great monuments, but he was too old for that now. Too much of his time was spent caring for the candle, worrying about the fuel that filled his soul. He knew he didn't need to spend as much time working the candle. It took care of itself, burning strongly without him. It would last a long time before he needed to rework it, but it comforted him to watch the flame flicker and play out the story of his life. 

Today he planned to put the candle out and walk away, but like always he remained seated. The sun rose and he knew it was morning. He strained mentally, trying to force his body to move. He needed to at least try to put the candle out and let it go, but his mind wouldn’t let him.

 He remembered the day he received the candle, and part of him wished he never had, but then he said to himself, “It gave me so much potential in life.” That was the moment his body worked for him. He stood grabbed the newly worked candle and blew it gently out. He walked to town and stood back in an alley watching the crowd. He saw many young people, but no one stood out, then he saw him. A young handsome man, who walked around casually and upright. He knew the young man had the world at his feet. Arthur grabbed the ardent boy and whispered “How would you like to live forever?”


He explained the significance of the candle and how to care for it, and as he was about to leave he called back “don’t forget to live your life well!” 

Thursday, May 7, 2015

The Yellow Zoo

A yellow balloon began to float away.
The little boy said “Mom grab it!”
The Mom turned. She saw yellow. She jumped, and the string slide through her fingers. It sunk and tipped violently before floating off and dancing its way up into the sky.
“I hate the zoo.” The boy said watching the balloon drift away.
“We can get another one.” The mom assured.

“It isn't the same.” Since that day the boy had yet to go back to the zoo, but it had only been a week.

Friday, May 1, 2015

Of Little Dreamers

Hope is fleeting
Especially in dreams.
They come, they go.
Sometimes never to come again.
What causes us to dream?
Or wake?
Especially when the dream is nicer.

Little babies dream like us.
Maybe even the same dreams.
They must,

Because they smile while asleep.

Fighting Death

In the darkest of her widowed light.
The shadows plunge with all their might
At her child sick in heart
To strike his brow and drag him off.
The shadows laugh as they go saying
“It is late. It is fate. Never to be changed.”
Harsh in sound and demonic in style they end.

She chases into that laughter
Casting down the devil and his knights.

Her childs hers and hers alone.
Not fate. Not anything, will change her will.

She'll have her son - forever, always.

The Red Planes

In the air, oh so far away
Little red planes had flown our way.
When they were close we could see
the little dark crosses on their wings.                    
If we knew then what we know now
we would have hid quicker, better
but as life has it, we stood.
Waiting.

When the planes were close, we knew
LIFE was all. But close at hand.
Craters caused from little bombs
as black as death and murderers.

Crumpled farms and crumpled walls.
Our little village in the hills
not even safe.

-Children trembled in their future nights.

Under rubble lied belongings.
Piled higher than the wreck.
Buried there were dreams and hopes,
some to be recovered,
but never peace of mind.

Children still played,
but not as rambunctiously.

Taking such innocence in life
not just from the wounded,
but those who have caused harm.

Trained in youth to wound
and then coerced to kill!

Life is but a fragile thing.
It can be shattered, broken,
it can collapse in all at once
to suffocate and take away.
Breathe!

Childhood has long gone,
no longer do the flowers smell.
No longer can our feet feel grass.
Painless, painful.

How to be redeemed?
From depths to far
so very much unknown.
To feel once more like before.

When loud noises are heard
the adults go running.
They hide before their children,
so they might live and still be with them.
The only worry is, 
what if their children don’t make it?
Who would they live for then?

When the little red planes left,
after dropping their bombs,
they left heavier.
Carrying dreams,
hopes and aspiration.
Leaving behind 
the weightless
remnants of fear.
That is what war is, 
endless loosing.